Du verden….

I have been giving a great amount of thought to healthcare, faith etc lately thanks in part to a ”skeptic” movement around these parts. I use the term skeptic loosely with this group..As a great deal of the information provided by them and responses given by them when questioned resemble close-minded dogma driven viewpoints over anything i’d personally consider thinking(critical or otherwise)

In one discussion a member of this group seems to have been backed into a corner and could not form an intelligible reply and simply said ”du verden”. I am not exactly sure of the translation but i am under the impression that the english equivalent to this statement would be, ”hey, it’s your world” this statement is of course derogatory but I think there is alot of truth in those words.

After all this IS your world, everything you experience is from your perspective. You see the sun rise with your eyes, hear the birds sing with your ears etc. No one else alive experiences this world in the same way you do. No one has had the same experiences, emotions, knowledge or make up that you have.

As such the responsibility of finding the best way of living your life fall’s entirely on your shoulders and no one elses, perhaps this seems daunting, but in reality it is the greatest gift you can have.

Making decisions about how to stay healthy, what to do to prevent illness, and if ill, how to recover can be a amazingly diffucult proposition. We can’t all be PHD’s and even those who are usually only have a deep understanding in a very narrow scope.

So what do you do?

1.You can research these subjects at the library etc

2.You can ask people around you for their opinions, advice

and of course

3.You can look on the internet…One of the greatest tools ever to exist for the transfer of information

 

Now all three of these options can be invaluable to help you make the decisions concerning your health, and there is an amazing amount of information out there on pretty much any thing you want to know about.

 

This is where critical thinking comes into play. How can you know which information is accurate? speculation? or just plain BS?

Well you can’t know for sure..you have to use your mind to sort through the information..some questions you may ask your self are:

Does the source of this information have anything to gain from the opinion they give?

(A large pharmacutical company selling a high priced pill to cure your illness? A healer charging a substancial fee to do the same? neither of these necessarily invalidate the information but i’d say if this is the case gathering further information from other sources would be strongly advised)

Is the source of the information biased based on beliefs, religion etc?

( For some, information can be highly filtered as defending their belief structures is of highest priority..Would a catholic church be likely to suggest treatment options that contradict their beliefs? Would an Atheist Skeptic group be likely to suggest options that involve spirituality etc? not likely)

Is there alot of information available or just 1 or 2 sources?

(It is of course much easier to make a decision the more varied information there is on a subject, If information is diffucult to come by that could be a sign that either the technology is very new or that it is not supported, again not a garunteed sign of fraud but i’d suggest treading very carefully if this is the case)

Is there information on the effectiveness of the treatments?

(For some this means clinical trial’s, scientific evaluations etc. I find this information valuable but to be honest i’m more interested in peoples experiences, I’m not a number or a test tube so I find peoples comments more valuable than chemical breakdowns and such. for example something like:

‘My name is john, I had symptoms a,b,c etc I had treatment X and felt much better afterwards, less pain etc etc”

is far more valuable to my decision making than something like

” group A showed 23% improvement in symptoms compared to control group”

both are equally valid and that is just what’s best for my mind, you get to decide which you like better remember it’s your world

 

Now you have gathered a ton of information, given it alot of thought and consideration, weighed possible dangers and benefits etc

So what now? If you think there is a chance it could help you, go try it! It is easy to get bogged down in details and debate but it boils down to you will never know if there is benefit or not unless you experience it.

If it helps then you have found something that will improve your life, If you do not gain anything from the treatment you can eliminate thought on it allowing you to investigate other possibilities

It’s your World, your Body, your Life..experience it

Positive thinking ups and downs

Hello again my friends ,

It has been a busy week + around here..My Fiancee and I went to the interview on the other side of the country. I think it went well, they seemed to like me and my attitude towards the buisness and the community.

The job seems right down my alley, It is a hotel/bar/dining facility that has just been remodeled, and is basically being reopened from scratch with all new rooms, renovated kitchen etc. I like coming into a place as a fresh start and making it great, especially in such a great area and in what seems to be a thriving small community with big dreams for the future. There were a few surprises in the talks, but nothing that can’t be resolved I don’t think

I have to admit there have been day’s that my mantra ”Just for today, be positive” has slipped my mind….I am trying to remember but sometimes I simply forget, such is being human.

Even on those day’s when i miss the mantra I find myself thinking from a more positive mindset. I’m not always laughing and thinking about the great love in the world, but even in stressing situation’s I like to think I’m handling them better at least to some degree.

There have been a few thing’s weighing on my shoulders lately, that at times put my ”positive thinking” in jeopardy or at least pushes it to the limit’s

One, This job opportunity, in my mind, is very important to myself as well as  to my family. It could in theory help to give them the life I  feel they deserve and need. There is some fairly high risk in the position and that worries me… I have little doubt that i could be successful, but as life is chock full of unexpected events, I could unknowingly put them at risk..

Two, I went to the doctor tuesday(had an incident where i fainted and poured coffee all over myself..:p ), then I went again Thursday, my blood pressure was a bit low, blood sugar a bit ”off”.  Nothing too scarey of course but the way they keep describing the medication I use to control seizures as ”dangerous”, ”damaging’, ‘not worth the side-effects’, etc etc is a just a tad troubling lol..

I had a bunch of blood drawn, and an IV with just ”salt water” and electrolytes to hydrate me or something like that..Will get results in a week

Stress is a part of life and can’t really be avoided..you can however decide how you handle the stress and thats the important thing to staying positive.

I just remembered something someone told me once. ”The key to finding happiness is to simplify your life” They talked on how alot of people are overstressed and spinning out of control because they have allowed too many things to rule their lives. A person should define one or two thing’s that are of the greatest value in their lives and thats it. Anything that doesn’t support this ‘lifes purpose’ should not be given much thought if any at all. I think these words were quite acurate.

My thing’s are to be a good partner to my love and to be a good role model for the boy’s. I can’ think of anything more important to me than these two things. My happiness and the pride I have in myself always seems to lie in how successful I am in accomplishing these thing’s..So from now on that is my lifes goal, and if somthing doesn’t support or directly influence this I will not stress over them and that is a very positive thing

Thats about it for now, thanks for reading and Just For Today be Positive

(Side Note: I have recently taken back up a hobby I have always enjoyed,3d modeling, If you happen to have an interest in the subject there is a very skilled college instructor who shares my idea’s on knowledge shouldn’t be just for those who can afford it, and as such has released his coursework in video format,

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=AF8FE85B2A969BD3

check him out if you are interested in 3d design )

Just for today be positive

Hello folks

I haven’t written for a few day’s, I have not forgotten my positive goals though I have been busy, which in itself helps to further my positive outlook on life . My future Father-in-law has a beautiful boathouse down by the fjord. The inside was unfinished and I have been helping him put up paneling, We finished in two day’s and with wood to spare. the paneling is a lightly colored wood(pine I believe) and makes the inside look very nice. You could easily see the pride in his eye’s when he looked at the finished product

They thanked me for helping, but in all honestly I felt they were the ones deserving the thanks. It was great for me to be able to accomplish something, to work again. I forgot how much I enjoy the aches and pains you get after physical labor lol..may seem strange that i say that, but those little aches let you know your alive and that you accomplished something, plus I must admit I am very happy with the work we did as well and look forward to helping in the painting/staining of the paneling later this week.

people working together is one of our greatest strength’s in my opinion..there is something special about completing shared tasks with others that brings out the best in people, i don’t know exactly why this is but you see it all the time from fairly small tasks like the boathouse to Amish barn razing and upward to things like rebuilding after a disaster. People come together share their respective lives and sit tiredly at the end of the day, have a beer and revel in the work they have accomplished…Perhaps I put to much into this I don’t know, I just call it as I see it

I think at least some of where this comes from is my father, I think he shared this view although he never spoke with me about it. I was a young rather lazy child, happy to sit and think about science,math, play games etc..He always forced me out of these patterns and made me go work..manual labor type of work . I generally saw this as  him torturing me and maybe he was lol. He told me once that he pushed so hard because he didn’t like how i used my Cerebral Palsey as an excuse to get out of thing’s( which I did regularly as a youth). Whatever his reasons he did teach me alot about alot of things, car repair, all manners of handyman work etc etc, perhaps the most important thing he taught me was to work hard and take pride in what you do…

The thing Is I actually liked working with him, being his assistant on his projects, It was working alone that i hated..I never told him how much i liked that, sitting here now I wish I did.

i suppose that is all for now, thanks for reading

Never Stop Asking, and Just For Today be Positive

Positive Thinking-Perhaps there is something here

First off I must apologize for missing yesterday, I was feeling a bit ill, and  down so I took the day off.

 

Today has been quite positive, and my confidence in the idea that thinking positive can improve your life is growing

I overslept today, luckily my lovely fiancée woke in time to get the boy’s to school.

When I did wake up, I recited my mantra ‘Just for today, I will be positive’ and enjoyed laying next to my love for a few moments before hopping up and putting the coffee on.

I have been in contact with a hunting/fishing lodge on the other side of the country for some time about interviewing for a position there. Today with a great deal of help the tickets were booked for this trip to finally come into being( there were times when i seriously doubted this was going to happen) and an added benefit is that my fiancée will be accompanying me on the trip, we have dreamed of taking a train trip together for a long time so for me this a large ”cherry on top of my ice cream” . If offered the position we would relocate to the area so her seeing the area is also very valuable, plus she can bring her camera so we can bring back pictures for the boy’s and family to see.

 

I am very excited about working at this company as well(if offered the position) the area as well as the setup and circumstances there appear to be right up my alley so to say. I already have idea’s floating around in my head on how to make things there as good as they can be, and am very interested to talk with them about their expectation’s, want’s etc.

 

I already find that I have been smiling more often, laughing and enjoying my day’s more from this experiment and have only been involved for a few day’s, I am still not convinced of some of the more fantastic claims of positive thoughts but I must admit I am becoming somewhat less critical and am looking forward to seeing the effects as time passes

Thanks for Reading, Never Stop Asking, and Just for today be positive

Positive Thinking day 3- Hidden surprises

Well, yesterday I was a little nervous about the effects today would have on my positive new self, I am happy to report that I was proven wrong

I woke up and immediately had my mantra on the tip of my tongue, so a ‘Just for today, i’ll be positive’, and was out of bed and stirring the boy’s up for school(which was very easy this morning ) As I sat at the kitchen table drinking some coffee, I tried to visualize the perfect outcome for the day’s task’s. Everyone I talked to was happy and helpful,  they all were quick to give me the answers i wanted to hear, the sun was shining and all the T-bane’s were on time and empty(the T-bane part proves it was a fantasy lol )..The boy’s were done with the morning race so I took this time to get dressed and such.. Apart from a minor hitch with a missing sweatshirt the morning was going quite well..

I put my jacket on and was about to slip out the door when i noticed my fiancée had woken and was looking at me as I head for the door. A very nice surprise to be able to talk to her a bit and give her a hug and kiss before I head out.

When i got out the front door it was quite a bit warmer than i had expected and the sun was in full bloom( It is hard to describe to some how much a warm sunny day can do for your mood, unless they have experienced the very long, very dark, very cold winters that are a part of the climate in these parts) spring makes you feel lighter and freer.

 

I only had to wait a few minutes for the T-bane, when it came my fantasy wasn’t realized, it wasn’t empty lol but I was able to find a seat so I was happy.

 

When I arrived at my meeting I approached the person with the best smile I could muster, and said ”hi, how are you today? well I hope” and asked about the thing’s I had gone there to find out patiently and politely. The person was very helpful and seemed to have a genuine interest in my question’s. I didn’t quite get the answers I had hoped to but i got a lot of information, some help and some suggestions on how to proceed which was great!! With the information I got and the help of some amazing family members the day was a resounding success.

 

The most negative part of my day was trying to figure out how to work an automated public toilet, felt like i was working the control’s of a spacecraft that never got off the ground hehe..but If things like this are the worst part of my day I’d say i’m doing pretty good

Many thanks to those who help my day’s be all the more positive..you know who you are and thanks for reading

 

Never Stop Asking and Just For today be Positive

Positive Thinking-Day two

Day two of my experiment on the effects of thinking positively soon draws to an end.

When I awoke there was a little delay in the recitation of my Mantra ”Just for today I will be positive” No excuses as to why…I just waited a bit..I think thats ok, my mind was a bit full of morning fuzziness and a little waking prior to life changing words seems like a decent idea

I didn’t meditate yesterday, or today..I may later I may not we will see.

The general mood today was ok..Some positive feeling’s some missteps into the negative…mostly today was somewhere in the middle and I’m ok with that. As long as i’m purposely thinking of staying positive that helps to change my patterns. I had some ‘odd’ thoughts today…

When I started to wash the dishes I took note of how I felt..which was frankly nothing at all, not negative not positive just..’yeah ok i’m doing the dishes. I began to wonder if the positive thinkers out there would have been thinking more like ”Awesome, doing the dishes is great and makes my day beautiful and full of joy!!” I don’t know but the thought made me smile, so It served it’s purpose lol

I think tomorrow will be a challenge, I am going to speak to some people who have been somewhat of an obstacle to my dreams and hopes, but I have a plan that i think will help..

I will say my mantra and kiss my fiancée( for that extra boost of goodness) and visualize my meeting with these people going well and being productive, then when i go to meet them I will smile, stay positive, state my questions as clearly as I can and listen to what they say and try to fully understand them before asking another question or coming to a conclusion, If they are unable to offer the assistance I need, I will ask them to explain why not and then decide my next moves from there. I believe I can succeed

 

Never Stop Asking and Just for today be positive

and thank you for reading

Physics- the final standoff? Gravity VS Strong force?

I have been thinking of classical physics and quantum physics lately. Particularly, how they seem to be a direct contrast.. on the classical side you have Einstein’s theory of general relativity. A theory that quite beautiful describes the universe and  the interactions between things in the world. Think of it like this..

The 4 dimensions(3 space and 1 time respectively) of the world we know are interwoven into a smooth flowing fabric, every object(a planet for example) sits on this fabric, and just like if you were to place a bowling ball on a stretched out bed sheet, it creates a divot, an impression in the fabric, this phenomena is what gives us the force known as gravity.

Smaller objects close enough to be effected by this divot would be pulled toward the object creating the divot…this creates in my view a very nice concept of the universe

 

The equations for this theory work almost flawlessly at predicting natural phenomenon, and why things do what they do..That is until you look at something smaller than an atom, almost like a cosmic practical joke, the sub-atomic world is nothing like the world we see..everything we ”know” can effectively be thrown out the window. As such a new set of rules were developed to attempt to describe this tiny law breaking world, this we call quantum physic’s

Quantum physics does a great job describing this world, how it works and the forces at play(albeit completely opposed to what most would consider sensical  lol),But there is a major problem now, we have 2 completely different sets of rules describing one universe.

In fact if you were to use quantum rules to describe the universe that nice smooth fabric discussed above turns into a chaotic mess of spikes, undulation’s and weirdness in all dimensions including time..perhaps interesting but all those nice rules set by Einstein seem to be completely nullified..and basically would mean we don’t really know anything..A possibility of course but it would be nice to think we have made SOME progress in our knowledge from our hunched over ancestor’s

This dilemma has spawned a branch of physics known as String Theory, seems to make quite a lot of ground on bringing these two groups together, unfortunately for the moment at least none of the theories can be tested past a blackboard and we all know scientists need their experiments.. Reminds me of a joke I heard:

What do you call a sound scientific principle that can’t be tested?

–Religion  lol

any who I won’t be discussing String theory today, I actually do like whats presented there but I will be instead presenting my own theory that I have named ‘The cotton equation’ Should you expect to see this wonderful Idea in the next scientific journal? I wouldn’t hold your breath

The biggest gap between the General Relativity and Quantum theories fall’s within how the so differently describe space, ie either a smooth fabric, or chaotic discombobulation.. I feel that the cotton equation could possibly ease this gap..

If we think of a normal run of the mill cotton sheet, It is smooth, somewhat elastic and carries most of the properties described in general relativity

So, our cotton sheet is a good representation of Relativity(well not really but it shares the characteristics close enough for my purposes) What if we were to grab a microscope and take a closer look at our sheet? It would look the same right?

 

Wait a minute..What is that? that looks nothing like the sheet, surely I put in the wrong picture right? nope, that is our sheet..On the microscopic level it looks a lot  more like how Quantum physic’s describes space than how Relativity does, but if you were to talk about how a sheet is a good way to demonstrate relativity and present the picture above people would think you had lost your mind, but it doesn’t change the fact that it is.

 

The point of my rambling’s about bed clothes is that in reality is it possible that both Relativity and Quantum physic’s can accurately describe the universe at the same time even though they seem completely different? I think so.. I think it is a matter of perspective, how you choose to approach the question that determines the finding’s and that one method doesn’t prove the other incorrect it simply proves that it was looked at in a different way.

 

Never Stop Asking

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day one-Positive thinking experiment

Spring is upon us..and not a moment to soon

Today started off very well, I awoke to my fiancée, gave her a kiss and recited my mantra with a smile on my face The weather today is amazing, sun is shining, warmer than it has been. Perhaps the universe is assisting in my new positive view on life. It’s not hard to be positive as the ray’s of sunlight come streaming in through the window thats for sure.

 

Pizza is the word of the day for dinner, the youngest quick to point out how many months it’s been since we enjoyed the cheesy goodness of a frozen pie… Secretly I am not a big fan of frozen pizza’s my biggest like of them is the ease of preparation and cleanup afterwards lol

 

I have had some waves of negativity float by from time to time. This doesn’t discourage me, Patterns that i have enforced for so long will take some time to overcome of course. I simply recite my mantra and move along.

 

I hope to meditate a bit today..Every time i think of it ”but’s” enter into my mind. I want to meditate but the kitchen needs to be cleaned..I want to meditate but i need to go to the shop etc etc. A normal pattern of mine. Just need to kick the but’s out so to say

 

Just for today be positive and ask the questions you want answers to

Positive thinking initial thoughts

I have decided to change my life for the better through staying positive and optimistic. I have seen the effects of this personally in my life as well as had heard of the results from others.

I have chosen to do this many times in the past but have veered away from my goal’s for one reason or the other every time. Thinking back I can’t really say  why I stopped the practices, every time i followed the practice I can honestly say I felt happier, more relaxed and had a generally better outlook on life.

Perhaps thing’s entered into my life that challenged my positive thought process to the point it broke, other times i became to caught up in the day to day that it simply faded into the background, and on still others I over complicated thing’s to the point that it became a stressful situation trying to stay positive( as strange as that may sound)

Well, I really want to be positive, happy, loving and caring and to live a good life. I also believe this is very possible to achieve.

I think one key, especially when beginning is to keep thing’s as simple as possible..at least until I can get a basic routine established, then I can explore a bit further into some different, deeper aspects.

I have a habit of jumping from the basics to complex very rapidly and think this tends to cause frustration in the long run, for example I enjoy graphic arts and bought a book on photoshop..I read the first chapter and threw the book down and immediately started playing with the program instead..I’m sure my skills would have been more balanced if i made it to chapter two

So my plan of attack for my positive new self is as of right now

• Every day upon waking kiss my fiancée and say ”Just for today, I will be positive”

kissing my fiancée isn’t suggested in anything i have read on positive thinking, but it always makes me happy so i                           consider it a valuable addition to a great day

”Just for today, I will be positive” is a modification of a saying in Reiki that i like..greatly simplified for easy of use and                    a bad memory lol

• Attempt to meditate daily even for a short time if necessary
• Take a walk or other physical activity daily, sitting around the house the entire day tends to make me tired and more prone to negative influence

and to start with that is pretty much it…

 

There are many other things I’d like to immerse myself in including Reiki, chakra’s, and many others and i may just incorporate them as I go along but i want to avoid pressuring myself early so i’ll not set them as expectations just options

 

thanks for reading, I will keep posting here daily with updates, events etc

 

 

Train of thought takes a detour

Hello again folks,

I had planned to talk about a few different things in this note, how i see Skepticism as dogmatic, concernes with quantum genetics..how I have a theory that James Randi might possibly be the best argument for the existance of reincarnation and the remarkable irony if that was the case

 

but….

 

As seems to be the norm for me, whenever I get deep into a line of thinking something happens to change my perspective and my thoughts go off into yet another tangent, at one time in my life I found this to be quite annoying, but I have come to just accept it as how I work these days.

 

You may be wondering what brought about this,dare I say paradigm shift(not sure paradigm shift accurately describes a change in thoughts, but it seems to be a popular term these day’s and being popular doesn’t hurt). In all likelyhood noone out there is wondering about this but humor me

 

I was recently invited to a lecture by a gentleman who will be discussing genetics, and ‘new’ genetics. The ‘new’ genetics is what primarily perked my interest, he seems to suggest that genetics do not play as big of a role in who we are and in the factor’s that effect our health as we currently believe. I visted this gentlemans website and read up on what his views were etc.. Upon scanning the site I was a bit doubtful as I saw a few references to terms that i have began to associate with questionable practices( quantum this and that, paradigm shifts and the like) I was having a diffucult time wrapping my mind around the principles being presented.

 

First stated was that the universe is completely constructed out of energy, this is where the ‘quantum’ comes in, as quantum physics states exactly that( fair enough, in my opinion this is a perfectly acceptable use of the term quantum as it’s not used for anything more than referencing therory’s presented)

 

Now we enter into concepts that I was having an amazingly difficult time coming to grips with..

It was presented that since the universe is basically different wavelengths, patterns etc of energy that it is possible that we can alter reality by changing our thought patterns and by the law’s of cause and effect change the patterns around us in what i can picture as a domino effect, In principle I can’t say this is a ridiculus idea, my issues where basically twofold..

 

1. I couldn’t see how a seemingly minute energy pattern(our thoughts) could effect the immense energy that exists in our world( pole magnetics, gravitational and enertial forces etc, not to mention the forces we have yet to prove past theory, sub-atomic forces, Super-String vibrations and the like)

 

and

 

2. If we are able to change reality with our thoughts, wouldn’t we all create seperate realities? where would we interact with each other? there would be, theoretically no common ground between one another..Each person would essentially be in their own dimension, or at the least their own percieved reality.

 

both of these were perfectly valid and disqualifing in my mind..until I chose to discuss things with my lovely fiancee, her views and opinions shed some light on these seemingly unsolvable problems.

 

So, shall we revisit the problems above in the new light given to me by our talks..

 

1. The first thing that pop’s in my mind in relation to minute effecting greater forces is the principle of the butterfly effect, If your unaware the butterfly effect states that the energies of the universe are so closely related, so interactive with one another that the smallest action’s of one source effect all others..Where the ‘butterfly effect’ gets its name is from the idea that a butterfly in say africa flaps its wing’s it can and does change thing’s worldwide and beyond..

 

Also, perhaps by thinking of thought on a strictly scientific level, I drastically underestimated the actual strength of thought.. If you think of some great people who have changed history the only way they enacted these changes was basically thought and thought alone.

 

Martin Luther King- thought that all should be equal, his speaches caused millions of people to change the way they think and effectivly changed the world we live in

 

Albert Einstein- Theorized over the working’s of the world we live, how things work, and how we fit in..honestly without Einsteins thoughts we wouldn’t be in a position to be discussing anything that i’m discussing here

 

…and so many more

 

Thought may very well be the strongest force out there, Perhaps it can’t be measured on graph paper..or perhaps it can and it’s simply that no one has thought of how to do it just yet

 

 

2. Reality, for this problem perhaps i defined reality incorrectly..in Buddhism as an example there is reference to ‘percieved reality’ this i have always found to be most interesting. Basically this concept is similiar to Shrødingers theories..and his poor cat. Of course Shrødinger/Plank take a mathmatical approach wheras the buddhists take a more theological approach but I think they are all describing the same or at least similiar phenomena.

 

The quantum physicists state that nothing exists unless it’s viewed, and/or measured..and perhaps of greater importance is that how a force is measured can determine and change how it exists.

 

So if two different groups of scientists were studying how photon’s reacted and were using two different methods of measurment they could quite possibly come to two very different conclusions, possibly even contradicting each other, which group would be correct and which incorrect? Well, excluding equipment failure both groups are ‘correct’

 

but Chris, How can two conflicting findings both be correct?? welcome to the wonderfully confusing world of quanta where HOW you see something is just as important as WHAT you see

 

The buddhist view is that how see the ‘reality’ around us plays a huge part in what is actually there spooky how similiar this is to fairly modern scientific theory isn’t it?

 

They talk about how ones expectation, opinions etc can effect ones life and teach that an important thing is to be able to release these expectations in order to see things as they really are. For example say you got invited to a party next week. You keep telling yourself that this party is going to be the best party in recorded history, you imagine live bands, amusement park rides, mimes, fireworks ..the whole works. The day of the groundbreaking party comes and you are soooo looking forward to going. You arrive and there is an old poker table with a couple people sitting around playing cards..

 

You are of course devestated!! not even a single rollercoaster? What a let down..But why exactly are you let down? is it the lack of glitz and glamour, or that you expected it? Perhaps the party would have been great if you would not have had such high expections, you created a scale to measure the party that made it impossible to live up to..thus altering your reality in a negative way

 

So possibly I jumped to conclusions on things a little to quickly.. I would like to put myself in a little experiment.

 

There is a saying in the healing practice of Reiki, I am going to use that as a basis for my experiment but simplify it to suit me needs and horrid memory lol

 

Every day I will wake up and say ‘Just for today, I will not be negative’ and attempt to remove negative patterns from my thought processes. I am sure the little negative hits will still happen from time to time but I don’t see this as a horrible thing, over all i should be able to bring my patterns to a more positive place

 

WE WILL SEE …TO BE CONTINUED